"Well, let's see. I think being aware of when I'm under extra stress helps. My body often tells me through sore muscles or headaches I'm too tense."
"Oh, okay. Now that I think of it, I have a tendency to grit my teeth when I start to get angry. I guess that could be a prompt to ask God to help me."
Sally seemed to have another idea pop into her mind. "Personally, I've noticed frustration gives me lots of energy so I will pound a pillow or run in place. You see, most of the time when I'm angry at Shawn, I'm not only angry at him, but other things--like Gary. Most often, it's because I'm not trusting God for the situation or person."
I fell silent. Sally looked at me expectantly. I smiled and said, "I'm so mad at Larry, I know I'm not trusting God for my marriage. Would you pray for me right now that God will heal our marriage and heal me from my anger?"
As Sally prayed, I felt strengthened ... and also challenged. Could I really trust God's plan even if it wasn't all that I wanted? It was obvious my anger was largely caused by lack of trust in God.
At the next Bible study, I hesitantly shared with the women my struggle. I could tell Sally was silently cheering me on. One woman spoke up and said, "Oh, Kathy, I'm sure it's not really as bad as you think. Everyone gets angry."
I felt weird trying to convince them I really needed their prayer support and accountability. When they agreed, there was a little light at the end of the long train tunnel for the very first time. As I walked home, I remembered a verse I hadn't thought of for a long time. I couldn't remember the exact words so when I got home, I flipped my Bible open to James 5:16 and read, "Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working."
I had confessed to my friends and my load felt lighter. Tweet that! Several of the women had even shared times they had become angry with their children and their husbands. Thank you, Lord, for a caring group who loves me exactly the way I need. Maybe there is hope after all.