I heard the neighbors playing and laughing in their pool, and thought, Now that's what I want on a Father's Day. A family playing together in a pool.
We had the pool, but no one wanted to be in it. My two children who were in elementary school at the time were playing at neighbor's houses; Larry was lying on the couch dozing yet watching football, and I moped around the house disgruntled. I felt like my family was falling apart.
Discontent crept over me until tears stung my eyes. Why can't things be different? I wanted to scream. Why can't our family be closer, especially on Father's Day?
Though I had grown tremendously in my ability to be content over the years, I was convinced I could no longer choose to be content. I just didn't have the emotional energy. Everything seemed of major importance and I felt overwhelmed.
I escaped to my bedroom, knelt by the bed, and poured out my discontent to the Lord. After releasing my frustration, I slowly began to see that even though I didn't have the strength to choose to be content, the Lord could empower me as I made a choice to obey Him. I prayed, "Lord, please empower me to trust You for all these dissatisfying circumstances. I give thanks for the progress that has been made in my marriage and family. I renew my commitment to trust You for the changes You want. Thank you. I love you. Amen."
I set the table with china and silver for a special dinner that would bring the family together at least for a short time. Busying myself with this act of love eventually caused my discontent to slip away. The day wasn't to my preference in every way, but at least I had received God's power to make one small step in arranging some togetherness--and to experiencing some inner peace.
If you are experiencing discontent today, what could you do to obey God regardless of your feelings?
(graphic by Stuart Miles at www.freedigitialphotos.net)