At the end of this post, I'll tell you how someone will receive a birthday gift in a drawing. It's my spiritual birthday! (Tweet that!)
As a child, I believed I needed to perform perfectly in order to earn God's love and approval, along with the approval of other people in my life. Because I was born in a "Christian" nation and attended church faithfully, I believed I was a Christian. Yet, I still felt uneasy because I never fully sensed that God loved me. I envisioned Him standing up in heaven, His arms crossed at His chest, tapping His toe and muttering, "Kathy, when are you going to become perfect so I can love you?"
When I couldn't become perfect because--horrors!--I did something wrong the very next day, I still felt compelled to add something to God's grace. I began to keep track of my deeds on an imaginary scale. On one side of the scale, I stacked my good deeds, and on the other, my bad deeds. I concluded, "Certainly I'll have more good deeds than bad deeds by the time I die. Then God will have to approve of me and let me into heaven because I've been such a good girl."
But because I couldn't place anything on the good side of the scale unless it was done perfectly, I constantly felt burdened by the weighted-down bad side of the scale. When am I going to become good enough? I constantly wondered.
It wasn't until several years later, at the age of eighteen, that the truth of God's wonderful grace broke through my earthly perspective. I began dating Larry in our senior year of high school.
Several months later, I attended his church, where I heard clearly for the first time bout God's unconditional love and grace--a grace that offered salvation as a free gift, nothing additional needed, not even my good works. With relief and joy, I asked Jesus to come into my life, forgive my sins, and become my Lord and Savior on that Sunday morning, October 1, 1967.
I'm praising God for this day--the 48th anniversary of my spiritual birth. (Tweet that!)
To celebrate my spiritual birthday, I'll give away a copy of our latest book Never Ever Be the Same to the winner of a drawing. To enter, put a comment here of any sort or email me (KathyCollardMiller @ gmail . com --omit spaces). I'll draw the winner Oct. 8, 2015.
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